Cabin Fever!

There is way too much snow outside and it just won't stop.  It's not so much that I hate snow; I just hate being TRAPPED by snow. Actually, I hate being trapped by anything.

Every time I look outside, I'm torn between awe (snow is pretty amazing) and terror.  I actually made circles in the kitchen today - yes, I walked in little frustrated circles.  That's when I knew it was getting to me.  I used to last more than one day stuck inside, but the infrequency of big snows here has spoiled me. My tolerance is much lower now.  I hate sitting still for too long and big blizzards like this always remind me of my general fear of being trapped.  Even windows - I hate it when a window is stuck shut. I could be breathing perfectly fine until I go to open a window in my home and it's stuck. Suddenly, I can't breathe, break out in a sweat, and bang on the window pane frantically. I hate that I can't crack my windows in Spring (allergies).  My dorm room window often got stuck.  And that room was actually a claustrophobe's worst nightmare (a small cinder block cell the width of a standard twin bed).  So being unable to get that window open would drive me to a tearful frenzy every once in a while.  I never told anyone this. Yet I'm not afraid of elevators or other confined spaces. I could hide in a closet all day long and sometimes tease friends by jumping up and down on elevators. Yet I can't be in a much larger space unable to come and go as I please.  Go figure.

Anyway, the upside to blizzards is that you have time to work on projects that have fallen by the wayside. If I were home, I'd clean the place. But I'm with the fam, so I guess I'll make collages or work on one of many other projects today...and tomorrow. God I hope it stops by tomorrow.

P.S. - I probably won't blog again until after the holidays. So check back in January and enjoy!